This is the Stuff

I was driving back to work today and heard this catchy little tune from Francesca Battistell called This Is The Stuff. I have heard some of her songs before and really liked her voice. As I listened to the lyrics I was struck again by how faithful God is in showing me right now that he is always with me and to let him lead my life. I dont want to always write about my Jesus Calling message of the day but it is just so darn good EVERYDAY! Today it was talking about Trusting God... taking the higher road in life and letting him lead your life... not leading on your own understanding of this world or what you think it should be but resting comfortably in the knowledge that he has it all undercontrol. Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding: In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make you paths straight."

I am a very independent person. I have a hard time letting people into my life and an even harder time leaning on others for help. I guess this stems from my parent's divorce at such an early age and me feeling like I needed to somewhat be the protector for my little brother and try to be somewhat of a stable ground for my big brother. I can look back over my life and count the precious few people who I have truly allowed to break down my barriers and come into my safe zone. I am still very guarded about things in my life, sometimes even with those I hold most dear. So for God to ask me to give up my own rational reasonable understanding,  my life planning, my walls to keep me safe and protected from what I fear may or may not be coming my way is a very hard thing to do. I hate being made vulnerable and that is exactly what he is asking of me. I was thinking about all of this last night and how I say... yeah, ok God I will "trust" in you but I am going to keep making my plans happen and persuing what I want and I am sure you will eventually want for me. Well today he told me No ma'am, You need to fully trust me and my plans.

Not two seconds after I read my message for the day Francesca's song game on and she sang these words...

 I lost my keys in the great unknown place,
and call me please 'cause I can't find my phone,
This is the stuff that drives me crazy,
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately.
In the middle of my little mess I forget how big I'm Blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I've got to trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I might choose, But this is the stuff you use

Couldn't have been more appropriate for me and my little doubting self!


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