Remembering Fathers

This Father's Day is a tough one for me. I have been very angry and emotional lately and I am coming to realize this holiday, which for a long long time I cared little about means more to me this year than ever before.

This will be the first year that I have to go through Father's Day without any Father to celebrate with. Last year was the first without my Grandy, who served as my Father in most ways, he was there for me whenever I needed him, he taught me about taking care of car, he taught me what to look for in a mate, he taught me how important Faith is, he showed me unconditional love in everyway he knew how. I always took great honor in spending Father's Day with my Grandy while he was alive. I miss him terribly every single day and cannot seem to fathom how we have survived this long without him. Life always seemed to feel much calmer with Grandy around keeping us grounded in the knowledge that the Lord is in control and to Trust in Him. These days as life seems to be swirling quickly out of control I look to the sky and ask Grandy to share his wisdom with us. This time though I know he has Jesus as his side as they together send comfort down upon us all.

We will NEVER FORGET!

 

This year is the first year that I am faced with Father's Day without my Dad. Looking back at the year after losing Grandy I would have never ever guessed that I would lose my Dad that same year. I miss my Dad more now than ever before. I miss all the lost moments and those we didn't get to share. I miss his laughter and his down to earth attitude. My Dad gave me some of the best advice I ever got during some of our quiet moments together or on the phone. My Dad showed me the strongest of loves even after we had hurt each other.  I am so proud of the man that my Dad grew to be, the fighter he was, the loyal friend he was, the loving husband to Christie. I know that on my toughest days here when I want to give up the fight his strength pushes me forward and on. His love never leaves me and I know he is watching over me always.

This Father's Day is one spent in reflection of the great men in my life. These men whose lives have shaped me forever.

Happy Father's Day to my Grandy and my Dad!

I also wish a very Happy Father's Day to my brother... the most AMAZING Father I know. One of the greatest things in the world is watching your brother become a father and seeing the transformation from crazy kid to patient father. Ryan you are doing an amazing job with all of your girls! I love you!