Trusting in God's plan

Yesterday was a hard day for me and my family.

Mom, Aunt Tammy and I all traveled down to Abilene Tuesday night to be at divorce mediation the following morning.

I had tried to work very hard to ensure that Mom would never have to lay eyes on Gary, therefore we arrived 30 min. before our start time and were swiftly tucked back into a private room with her attorney.

I sat in that room and was instantly saddened. Saddened by the circumstances, saddened by the scared look on my Mom's face knowing her future would be changed based on that day's decisions, saddened that she fell for a horrible man's lies and maniuplation. I was selfishly sad for myself and Patrick that we were 26 and 24 years old sittting in a room speaking on behalf of the only parent we have left... trying to slay a dragon with no law to back us up.

I do  not want to get into all the details of the day because that is my Mom's private business.... However I will say that we walked away from yesterday's experience knowing evermore that there is no faith or hope in this fallen world of ours. We must only put our faith and hope in the one who has conqured it all.

No mountain is to high, no valley to low for him to abandon us.... he will guide us through lifes storms as we remain faithful followers of his light.

My Mom is surrounded by a strong and present family who forms a protective shield around her. Yesterday that consisted of  Patrick, Aunt Tammy and myself in the physical but so many many more were praying for her. I believe our prayers were not unanswered but will come to be in God's timing and in a much more magnificent maner than we can imagine.

I am so incredibly proud of my Mom for being the strong woman she is, for putting her trust in the lord and not man, and for realizing Family is the most important thing.

I am proud of Patrick who came to be strong for Mom even when that meant being silent. For showing us what a real man looks like.

I am so thankful and grateful for my Aunt Tammy who showered us with love and encouragement when each of us wanted to lose it and for being the strong presence that pushed the limits.

We walk forward into the future with mistakes and pasts behind us, we walk forward looking to the eternal life promised to those who believe and with some sadness walk away from a seed that was turned into a thorn knowing that God will have justice in the end.

We look foward to the light!