We are coming up one year since you wrapped your arms around me.
One year since I saw you outside of a hospital room.
I think back on that weekend and just smile. There are alot of things I would do differently in our relationship together but that weekend was not one of them.
We laughed together, sat together, cooked together, and reminisced together.
That weekend I felt our bond was once again invincible. I knew that whatever happened going forward in our lives you knew how much I loved you and I knew how much you loved me.
You have been on my mind so much lately. I miss you more and more each day your are not here.
I try not to think about you not being here... it hurts to much.
I reread through your last text messages to me and cry. Sometimes I just need to cry over you.
Your messages are a reminder of how much you loved me, trying to shield me from the depth of your illness.
So strong and So brave. I think about what you would say to me on days like yesterday. How you would tell me to be strong and get through it.
I miss you.
