Thoughts on Pregnancy and Motherhood.

The journey to motherhood is quite simply beautiful and incredible. Although there are most definitely the moments of uncomfortableness and misery.  I often find myself with my hands resting on my belly feeling my sweet boy move inside me wondering how in the world anyone could question the presence of our masterful creator. God so delicately and perfectly designed a woman for this job. I am learning that things I have found annoying all my life or "useless" were made specifically for feeding my son or keeping him healthy. Every part of me has a purpose in sharing and growing this child... it's incredible!

As the pregnancy has progressed I have had countless things to consume my mind with worry about how Everett is growing. Surviving the first trimester free from a miscarriage, or putting something unhealthy into my body that he would ingest to much of and would harm him for life was cause for this new mom-to-be's mind to be in a constant state of array. I yearned for each doctor's appointment to know he was still doing well for at this time there was no indication to me that he was. I couldn't wait for he moment to feel him moving and know for myself during the day that my boy was healthy and well. Once we hit that mark it was the worry of feeling him move enough. During stretches that seemed to be less active I would fret over him. I know I could have/ should have let God do all the worrying for me but that's not human nature at all is it?! I trusted Everett's health in God's hands but found it to be a mother's instinct to worry about her child.

And Now as I am preparing to welcome my son into this hideously crazy world where so much evil seems to reside I am realizing that my worry has only just begun. This little man will be mine and his dad's sole responsibility and as frightening as it is I am so looking forward to this part of motherhood. I my worries will continue and grow as Everett does... but I know God has all of our backs!



Also, I recently read Jenny McCarthy's Belly Laugh's, not a fan of hers, but this book puts the funny and reality in pregnancy that had me laughing out loud on the couch and Drew looking at me like I lost my mind. I highly reccomend for anyone venturing down this journey for the first time!