Remember how I posted ohh like two posts back about enjoying the moment of NOW.... yeah totally did not follow my own advice on that one yesterday.
Yesterday was not a good day for me, I spent my day worrying about finding what will be my new home. Since our lease in our hell hole house is up on the 15th of next month we need to find somewhere to live pronto. With Neeley only be living there a few short months we decided the best thing to do is to find a spacious one bedroom that will be afforadable for me on my own after she gets married. We can make any space feel coze and like a home so she would set up camp in the living room and we would kind of "dorm style" it up for a few months. The most important part is just living together for our last little bit. However our needs are kind of specific for this one bedroom dream. First and foremost it needs to be affordable to me when she moves out. Secondly it needs to allow pets and have a yard. Thirdly in this Texas heat central heat and air is a high priority. We found a duplex that had been well kept and had lots of character on the inside but while waiting to see it and listening to others opinions it was rented out from under us. Now there seems to be no place to go with these dogs of ours in our price range.
I was at a breaking point yesterday with NO ONE accepting dogs or having a yard. I put an add for Cooper on craigslist. NOT AT ALL WANTING TO but feeling like I had no where to turn and feeling lots of pressure to figure it out. I cried as I typed out that he was potty trained, fixed, been through obedience training, and pretty much just the sweetest. I cried when I immediately got responses asking about him and why I was getting rid of him. I cried trying to explain it to them, to myself. Drew called and I lost it, he told me to take the post down that there was no need to give him away that there was a way around it. I still cried feeling I had betrayed Cooper.
I spent the rest of the day in a depressed mood trying to figure out what do.
I went home to be alone and pack for our trip to Louisiana today to see both my brothers, sister in law and nieces. While at home I got a call from our dear friend in Houston wanting to tell us that her very young son in law David passed away that morning from food poisining. He leaves behind the most precious wife and two wonderful sons. It life was taken to quickly and immediately I started to cry for this sweet sweet family and their sudden loss.
Death is hard, horrible, and seemingly unfair. My silly stress of finding a place to live instantly left as I quickly realized there is so much more in this life than the materialistic comforts we surround ourselves with. Family, Friends, Loved Ones are far more important.
My thoughts, prayers, and love are going out to this precious family as they try to cope with the sudden loss of a husband and father. We love you Renee, Nathan, and Evan and Linda!
