A few days ago She came along with me as my "assistant" on a photo shoot, this really consisted of her standing behind me and picking things up and randomly moving them around... but we were together and that made it special. Before my clients arrived I had her test the lighting for me. She stood there for a bit before finally cracking her smile. I asked her to "give me some moves" and as a result she danced for a minute.
Looking at these photos I see so much of you still here. Your smile, Your radiance, your spirit is in there! Things are getting very difficult for you. Small things are a challenge. Personal things are a challenge. You hate it. I think so often that I know you would absolutely hate to know you were living like this. You would be embarassed and angry.
Everett and I took you to the salon yesterday to get your hair done, a new girl styled it out for you and when you got up from her chair you hugged her and told her you loved her. She wasn't sure how to respond but my heart was bursting. We got Starbucks after and I didn't even ask what you wanted, wanting to not cause you frustration or confusion I just ordered your perferred drink. You told me 4 times "Thank you for helping me." I told you I would help you all the days of your life and you just smiled.
Sunday at church we sat on the pew with you and you were so proud. I heard a lady talking with Nana ask where you were, Nana pointed you out sitting and talking with an elderly man with both smiles shining brightly on your faces. You have such a tender heart. The lady remarked on how beautiful you were, I couldn't help but agree. You don't wear makeup much anymore, another thing I would think you would hate! But your beauty shines none the less. Mom your soul is so pure and of the Lord. I know he has amazing plans for you. I see it when you smile, when you make others smile and feel loved. You are so much like your Dad in that way.
I tell you I am proud of you, you ask why. Tears spring to my eyes as I try and tell you how courageous you are. You just tell me you are proud of me and then make Everett laugh. He adores you. I love to see your faces when you first see one another. I am so grateful for the time you two have together.
I am proud to be your daughter. I love you madly.
Never Forget!
